overthinking more like Shut the fuck up

     You ever notice how I only indent the first paragraph in these. I noticed that today. There’s no big reasoning behind it I’m just an idiot

Anyway 

It’s been almost one whole week of summer break and I haven’t taken the time to sit down and draw something until today and

As I put that (tablet) pen to the p(lastic screen)aper I realized I was procrastinating. I could tell by the way I made 100 little doodles that I delete to make room for more 100 little doodle instead of making the actual drawing I planned

And it surprised me a lot because drawing was always the thing I do if I was procrastinating , it was never the CAUSE of procrastinating. It’s like if ozempic made you fat one day

I thought about it for a moment and I realized that this was happening because I was putting too much thought about it. I’m so worried about my art being unique and not boring and good looking for when I post it online. 

And BAM  💥 shed a tear

I became what I hated! An artist who only thought of social media when they drew. And I was really offended in myself

That’s why I’m going to take this week to draw whatever I want However I want to. If it doesn’t look unique or lively enough then that’s ok Just post it anyway because there are way better things to worry about

Like why I indented that first sentence anyway

STILL ALIVE

    do not worry (i think.) Im still here, havent had anything to write about on blogger so i just havent touched it. while i did want to get into it more, writing isnt my go-to hobby, that would be drawing, but i thought it would be nice to drop in here for a moment so its clear that i havent dropped this forever. 

this week has been a bit stressful because of exams and stuff, but hank hill got added to fortnite like today so i got good reasons to keep pushing through. also, artfight starts next month and im really excited for it. ive been preparing my account in advance and making refs for new ocs, and.. theyre human.. i never woulda thought it'd happen. its kinda funny since i never gave a shit about making human ocs, and now that i got a good batch of them theyre probably some of my most fleshed out characters. not complaining at all since its really fun, i wanna try giving them a comic in the future. 

trying to think of what else i could mention

new deltarune chapters and splatoon raiders got announced, its genuinely making me consider getting the switch 2 this year just for the splatoon. and im obsessed with deltarune again and susie is my new favourite. i need that deer and purple monster thing to get together dont do this to me Tony

thats all i can think of to mention youre all caught up to the life and times of isaac 

shameless art fight profile plug: https://artfight.net/~N0ISAAC

another thing that helps with Dumb concept!

 ok, this is about the thing i published about 2 or 3 days ago. I wanted to add on that another thing that helps with the art block is drawing and designing weird abstract creatures. They dont even have to make sense, just draw whatever looks cool to the eyes. 

i made this one in science class, it doesnt have a name and i dont know what its made of except the cylinder tubes are like paper. i do know that its supposed to resemble a dog. or something dog-like, at least.

heres another one. i have no words for this one except that its one of my favourites. just look at it. Doing stuff like this makes me remember why i love drawing so much. not like i ever forgot, but its more like a nice, gentle reminder.

dumb concept

 i havent heard of this concept until recently, but just because i havent heard of it doesnt mean it hasnt been happening to me since forever. because now that i AM aware of it, it makes a lot of sense. its that thing where. when you draw for too long in one sitting the drawings become shittier. i dont know if it has an actual name, ive just seen people talk about it here and there so its relieving to know im not the only one who experiences it. i hate whenever it happens, and the effect doubles when its past 9 PM. by 12 AM it just feels like im dragging my pen against the tablet while my brain turns to mush. 

its so strange to me because it feels like it should be the exact opposite, after a few warmups the drawings should get better and more clean, but youre telling me when i put down the pen for a good few days im way happier with the result once i do draw again? that sounds like bullshit even though its so true and it pisses me off. i mean, of course i like taking breaks, i DO have a life outside of drawing and i have a bunch of other hobbies. its just weird that this thing can happen when i do want to draw, especially when i want to make an actual, whole piece. thats when it hits me the worst. 

its happened enough that ive slowly started to develop ways to counter that experience. yknow. things to make sure that feeling goes away. for example, once i notice the Thing taking effect, i just drop whatever i was trying to draw and find something else to do. sometimes its writing (like right now) or reading a book or doing a puzzle, i just try to stray away from socials, since it only fries my brain even more. Things like TV shows dont have this effect though. another thing that works well is just getting up and going outside. usually i cant do that because the Thing likes to take effect near night, but just doing a workout is effective too. I also dont doodle anything, because it takes away that motivation more, for some reason. its weird, because i genuinely enjoy doing it, i dont know the sciences. Taking time to think about what i want to draw next helps as well, sometimes brainstorming is nicer than doing the actual thing. i pick up the pen again whenever i get the next huge urge to draw, by then the Thing should be over, so i get to go back to drawing constantly with out a care in the world. 

i dont have a good conclusion for this, i am just dealing with the Thing right now.

HELLO BLOGGER

 I don't really know how this website works, It popped up in a random google search, but it seems like a fun little place. This is actually one of my first times blogging, I don't know what to put, but it's nice to know I got this website now. :-)

Anyways HI I'm Isaac and I love to draw and play video games and my biggest enemy is procrastination.